Go Away Sickness, I Don't Need You

Falling sick too often lately. Am so not liking it one bit. It's irritating, dreadfully irritating. Wonder what I'm doing wrong...

Lack of sleep is definately one of the culprit. But I can't help myself. I don't like taking naps, it just gives me a major headache. Sleep early? Well, that would depend as well.

Weather? Oh yea...I'd blamed it anyday, anytime. hahaha...(sorry weather, since you've been so unpredictable & unbearable, you are one of the factor)

Meals & Snacks...hmm...I've been eating healthily lately already, except of course my daily doses of Milo...might have to consider other alternatives though.

Anyway, anyhow, I'm sure I'll recover...eventually.

As for now...*hack* *cough* *wheeze* *sniff* *argh* *gulp*... HAHahahahaha....

Beware what sickness can do to you & your mind... it makes you do & say crazy stuffs...

I Love Swimming

The relaxing leisurely type of swimming of course...not the competitive type.

Never felt so "alive" and eager to go swimming. Actually, it has been ages since I last swam...(proper swimming)

Unfortunately, I'm very stuck at the 4 feet area. Will never venture off further than that. Even though I know how to swim, but I feel safer where my feet can actually touch solid ground. I doubt I can even float properly. It's no fun to almost drown when you were very young...

At times, feels so breathless, probably due to stress, or the water pressure of the water against the chest. (yes yes...I'm very short, so the water pressure is right against my chest, where it causes breathing difficulties)

But nonetheless, I love swimming. I love the water. I love the beach too. But not swimming in the sea though...big NO no.

Wonder if I can still slim down even more from swimming...hmm...*dreaming*

My Oh-So Empty Blog

Oh my...I totally left my blog unattended for so long...*gosh* time sure flies...

Well, in summary, have been busy, busy & busy. With lotsa new things, or with every day routine stuffs, or just plain old lazy...well, yea...tired and thus, lazy.

Should I make another new year's resolution? hmm...too old fashion...It is coming to an end of 2009 and the start of 2010 though...lots of things unfolding, beginning, plannings...(mind wandering off again...)

I will not make promises, but yea, I'll try to keep this blog and my thoughts alive and well kept...for now. (Still contemplating on upkeeping several blogs or to combine and maintain just one...hmm...) decisions....decisions...

Time to change a new outlook for it...again. LOL...virtual redecorating. What kinda mood next...hmm...

Mini Garden Progress (Day 1 til 8)

My First...(part 2)

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4) Handphone

This must be my funniest memory of all. Cos it all started with a bet with my dad. He bet that IF I scored 4A's in my SPM, he would definately give up smoking this time. I accepted the challenged, and did whatever I could for the exam. When the results were out, I actually got 4A's (bet he didn't see that coming, he probably was counting his luck that I'd scored maybe 1-2 A short), but my dad kinda swapped something even better for me instead. hhehe....so that's how I got my first nokia handphone.

5) Sushi & Sake

Thanks to my brother who first introduced me to sushi some 13 yrs back *I think (back then there was only SushiKing). So now, I'm very much hooked with sushi...kinda addicted to it (if only I could eat as much as I could, buffet's all you can eat might sound nice) Cheap & good salmon sushi's my fav !! (Sushi anyone? Arigato Gozaimazu!) As for my first Sake drink, it was during one of my birthday. My first impression was, it tastes like "banana + vanila" essence thingy... (weird)

6) Driving & Getting Lost

My first time driving alone, just after I got my driving license, and I ended up lost god-knows-where, didn't know how to get back home just because I took a wrong turn. Luckily, Penang is an island, so it's safe to go round and round and round...as long as I don't cross the bridge. Anyway, lucky for me, there was an event of muhibbah function going on, saw some policemen diverting traffic, managed to ask them the way back. Thank my lucky stars too that I was wise enough to fill up my car with petrol before embarking on this "dangerous" journey. It was getting kinda late and dark too.

Oh yea, first time driving at NIGHT too, while getting LOST. First thing I did coming back home, prayed to "Kuan Yin" and cried, thanking her for guiding me back home safely. This is also partly why I never want to drive alone, especially to ulu & alien known places to me. (I'm also a directionless prawn head with totally no sense of direction at all. A compass is of no use to me either...go figure)

My First...(part 1)

No. Not talking nor discussing anything about my sex life or first kiss or first relationships stuffs. It's going to be another "boring" post... (accept the fact)

So, my first "experiences" or encounters of sorts... (whatever I can still remember)

1) Bike accident

Happened sometime around form 4, around CNY. Thought my life would end right there & then. But luckily there was no traffic at the time of accident. I panicked and braked too hard when a car swerved right out, causing the brakes to jam and skidded. To my surprise, it was painless when I hit the ground and skidded, the pain and side effects only kicked in when I got up and tried to move...and also during the whole recovery period. My whole mind totally shut off and went blanked. When the first thought popped up, it was me feeling very guilty for being careless and thought my parents would've killed me for it. I never got the chance to participate in school sports for the final time during my final year in school.

2) Car accident

I was a back seat passenger, while my mum was driving. We were heading back to Penang from KL with an uncle of mine. It was pouring heavily, a car had already crashed and stopped in the middle of the highway. My mom tried to avoid it, but because there were probably oil spills, the car couldn't stop, the brake jammed, and the car just kept moving forward. Luckily it didn't spin uncontrollably, we would've been goners. And even luckier cos we skidded along the road dividers, rammed right behind an old model proton saga with very sturdy bumper. Wasn't even a scratch on that thing, but it made the front of our car crushed.

3) Leaving Home

Right after SPM and just the start of the holidays, I decided to pursue my "dream" studies in communication design in KL. I finally left my home in Penang of 18 years, to live on my own, being "semi" independant. (financially still funded by parents) It was a bit weird at first, living on my own, meeting new friends, housemates, new environment. But with some good friends/people accompanying me that time, I felt better.

Why People Should Stay Calm

I've had my own fair share of "not-so-nice" situations. Whenever it happens, it doesn't feel pleasant. It's hard, it's nasty, it's disturbing...


When Anger Boils

Feels like your whole body shakes or shivers non-stop, breathing heavily, feels tense, mind & head feeling heavy, your blood vessels feels like exploding, wanting to shout it out and venting that anger right out. It's pressuring, and potential migraine happening, sudden surge & burst of energy, but drains all out very fast. The words spoken can be unkind and forceful (and definately ones that hasn't been filtered by the brain) You'll regret ever uttering them, feeling guilty once you've realized that mistake.


Deep Sadness of Betrayal


Suddenly finding out the ugliest of truths when everything just seemed fine, immediately brings your spirits down, makes your heart sink, and mentally drained. You wonder what went wrong, why it happened or is happening, blaming yourself or the other(s). Blaming ourselves over it tends to lead to depression and possibly suicidal feelings. The thought of losing everything, and a life no longer worth living nor striving for. One of the most powerful and dangerous feelings of all if not well managed.



Cries of Sadness


The tears just can't stop flowing, the feelings keeps on swelling up, you choke and cough in between sobs to catch some air, but just doesn't work. Hyperventilating, heart pounding tremendously, sweating cold sweats, you feel like you're turning blue and could faint at anytime.


I don't have the ultimate solution, but it would probably be better and safer to have a motivational and supportive group or individual to be there for us in time of need. A better emotional management is in need. Seriously take into consideration and not allow it to happen again and again.

So, stay calm. *chanting chanting*

Why I Shouldn't Nap During Hot Days

I've never been a fan of "afternoon naps", but sometimes if I'm really tired, I do try to have one. Maybe say 10-15 mins ?

But all these while, my experiences were not so pleasant. (there goes my pleasant dreams...day dreaming got lah!) They say that naps should "refresh" you and all those stuffs, but for me, it just gives me a headache and potential migraine... *bleh*

So eventually, most of the time, I would just hang in there throughout the day, and do my sleeping at night. If I did successfully napped during the afternoons, I wouldn't be able to sleep early at all at night... (there goes another good night's sleep and sweet dreams) *double bleh*

Lesson for myself: just sleep early lah!~~ (as if) hahaha....

Shopping Here I Come

Ok, have went ahead with a little bit of shopping anyway. Despite the lack of "substance".


I'm so into C.Union brand at the moment. It just so happens that I quite like the designs (vintage design styles printed on their apparels), the sizes & cuttings fits me (I especially like the V-necks), and their assorted colour range & combinations (at least it's acceptable & quite pleasant) some are really bold, but overall, it's nice!

I hope they maintained and improve their designs and quality though. Otherwise I would need to keep changing brands and finding alternatives every other shopping.

Shop-A-Holic

I have a sudden urge to refill my closet with more clothes now.

It is also possibly because it's the Mega Sale, so everything is definately affordable and reasonable. And also a fact, I don't know where the maids have put away some of my nice clothes and forgotten where they've put it. (meaning it's lost somewhere) I definately would need to replace with new ones pretty soon anyway.

But before I even do, I've already used up my quota on my kids. Kids clothes aren't exactly cheap. The only reason why spending is necessary (and inevitable) because they look cute & pretty in almost anything (especially if its girls) and being girls, all also want to be cute & pretty. They choose their own clothes, fashion, even shoes... (except for sizes)

The most important reason is definately because, they grow up so fast and so big. As they grow up, they tend to become even more picky on their choices and fashion. (kids also have fashion taste too you know)

Hmm...Kids fashion show anyone ? LOLz

Volunteer Works

What better way to spend time & meeting people, being a volunteer, doing volunteer works.

To feel good about oneself, doesn't necesarrily derives from receiving something, but rather, to share and give something away. It doesn't also have to be physical goods, unless it's something one really needs.

Spending time with the underpriviledged, the less fortunate, special people, or people who needs help, etc. Whichever that comes to mind, or one that we feel strongly for. We try to do whatever we can and to offer ourselves & our services unconditionally.

It also serves as a reminder to oneself that, when we think we're not doing so good, there are others who have it even worse. We should feel fortunate and blessed with whatever we already have.

I think it would be a good lesson to expose young kids. To try and understand, appreciate themselves even better. Kids these days are really smart, but some tend to take things for granted too much. A good & meaningful exposure should do the trick.

Low On Energy

I'm getting old...that's a fact

I do feel older, and definately very out of shape. To make things worse, weather isn't helping me feel good about myself.

It's been some tiring days, restless & sleepless nights. It's so hot, it practically feels like a natural sauna. I hope I don't get dehydrated though.

Need to keep watch on what to eat too. Don't want to get myself KO-ed. (but some things are just too tempting) *resist*

Reminds me on how much I miss my Sushi... *sob sob* wonder when can I go eat it again.

Hot Fried Brains

Things are starting to heat up...

Night time seems to be somewhat cooling though. But come day time, it is terribly hot.

Brain's not working, can't think of anything properly, not to mention doing work...concentrations just all off. *focus...focus....focus*

There are times when I wished the whole house was air-conditioned. But unfortunately not. And it's not always a good idea too. Cos once you come out from that cool refreshed aircond room out to "reality", heat wave hits back at you more times than you could ever imagine. Sudden and instant massive heat overwhelming you. *headache*

There isn't the slightest wind as well. And most of the time, while looking afar, I would see a mirage on the roads. That already shows how hot is hot really is.

Wished there were massive huge trees like canopies around...or sprinklers all around the house spraying to cool the house down.

Please cool down soon weather...

When Hot Is Just Too Hot

Sun sun, go away, hide away behind some clouds today...

If there's any clouds for it to hide that is. Sky looks pretty clear these days. Almost too clear. Clouds are as white as...snow? The sun rays practically shines right through the clouds, illuminating it's fiery blazing rays all across the land...er...island too.

That's why such weather leads to a whole lot of other complications. Too hot, makes the whole body sweat, sweating leads to dehydration, dehydration leads to people becoming blur, blur leads people to want to faint, fainting leads to .... (the list goes on and on...)

This is also the time when I hate my 10 + 10 mins daily walks...*sigh* more skin changing tones (Chameleon kah?) LOLz

But it'll be good for my growing plants though. The sun light will definately make them grow faster and healthy. It's definately going to be a nice experience to see plants grow and flowers blooming. How long will it take...hmmm...

Need For Speed

Yea, talking about my driving.

I personally would rather drive a manual car than an auto any time, any day. (even if it kills my legs during traffic jams)

Based on my own personal driving experience, or preference, manual provides a sense of control, controlling the speed by choice of gears, better pick-up, etc. (but of course I don't simply speed over the limits lah...)

Why I would rather drive and have the urge and hunger for speed ? Weird excuse but...it's because I'm prone to motion sickness when being a passenger. LOLz. Yups, I am fated not to be a passenger, to just sit back and relax being driven around. *sigh*

Seriously, not even the shortest distance. Whenever the car moves, stops, takes a turn, goes over bumps, any swaying, goes up parking ramps, bumpy roads, etc....I'm a goner. *praying extra hard for dear life* hehehe...

That's why I don't really like taking buses. LRT's, trains are the worst (from my long ago experience) Boats, ferries, I'm not quite sure cos rarely travel on them. Planes, well...only feel annoyed with the air pressure, ear pain, and the few failed attempts to swallow hard...but still, motion sickness kicks in once in awhile.

When Love & Care Just Doesn't Seem Enough

Old folks can be more of a handful as compared to kids. Especially when one doesn't even remember what had happened a minute ago, nor listens to any kind advices that were meant to be good for them. (it doesn't sound pleasant once they start using their seniority on you)

Love & care really isn't enough to support them. It needs an extra more patience & watchful eyes, plus maybe a good strong healthy heart to do it. Why I said so ? Here's some examples...(this is also probably another example of "mind over matter" situations)

Older folk who has past leg injuries (denies ever having being injured as well) and is also gradually losing sense of balance, tries to walk without the assistance of walking aids, or conveniently forgets them, misplaces them, etc. *it's not that she was denied the right to walk around, but at least it would be safer to use a walking aid, rite ?

With such difficulties, still attempts at climbing up higher places (like on a sofa) to get something placed out of reach, several attempts to walk few blocks back to her house by herself, regardless under cold wet rain or blazing hot sun shine. *conveniently forgets about several falls and injuries and still not learning from the whole ordeal...*sigh*

When kind advices go unheaded (just because "NO" isn't an acceptable answer) it would take lots of attention diverting & coaxing to calm and convinced an old folk. (also sometimes using seniority to get away with it, or threats to harm oneself, etc) *sounds like any kid who throws tantrums and really really wanting something right ?

It would be helpful if we know more about how to care for more difficult situations. Knowing more about the symptoms or illnesses one has. Being prepared (mentally & physically) for the unexpected, unintended, unwanted.

So, please love, please care, please be more attentive, and please please please be more patient... towards all the old folks out there.

New Sandals....& Slippers

FINALLY! Just bought them. Will finally have my own slippers to wear and not always borrowing others. LOLz (It was fun while it lasted though)

My usual favourites are flats. Since borrowing my mom's shoes, which are half an inch or more high soles, it doesn't feel so natural and comfortable walking on. But my mom does have almost a whole shelf of different design shoes, heels & sandals.

When I was young, I remembered always playing around with my mom's heels, trying them on and attempting to walk while wearing them. (a bit deja vu feel when the kids do it now)

Oh, reminds me too how I kinda played around with my mom's make-up stuffs as well. I didn't quite understand why people put on make-up anyway. Cos til now, I've only put on make-up for performance or special events purposes (but that was also ages ago)

I kinda already like the way I am. The make-up kinda makes my skin even worse...ohhh...*pimples* Been trying ever hard to keep the skin natural and avoid more pimples than before. *groan*

Not So Penangite-ish

True from the heart confessions of a Penangite who hardly qualifies to be a Penangite....*sigh* yea, sad isn't it? hehehe....

Ok, why I said so, reasons as follows...

1) No Laksa For Me Please!

One of the dish that Penang is actually famous for, and of all things, I don't like eating it at all. Only tried maybe like...1-2 times? Not liking it at all... *no offence* It smells good, just I don't really like the taste...nor the noodle...hmm...

2) Lorongs? What Lorongs? (short-cuts)

I haven't truly ventured around & within the island with much success. Not even familiar with much roads, the IN and OUT, LEFTs or RIGHTs, UP and ABOUT...hehehe. Plus with my lousy sense of direction, it doesn't help much. I even almost got lost and almost ended up crossing the bridge out of the island...hahaha. (But that happened long time ago after I got my drivers license lah...)

3) Durians!! *stinky breath*

I've stopped eating durians at a very young age. All thanks to my brother who teasingly introduced me to some creepy crawlers in one of the durians when we were opening and extracting em out. Well, besides that, there's also the issue of smelly breath, the heatiness, soon-to-get-sore throats, etc.

4) No Chilly Padi, But Spicy Curry Please?

Ok, well, not too spicy curry. But I do like and prefer eating some "spices" dishes as compared to eating chillies or chilly padi. Some friends actually said that spices are even more spicy than chillies, and wondered how I can eat those stuffs but not chillies. Maybe because chillies are fresh & juicy so it stings more, while spices are dried stuffs ?

5) Outdated With Places

Don't even know whether some places still exist or changed name. The new hang out places are definately out of my league. Not sure where's where & the how to's to get around. Roads become one way, or newly developed roads. Where to get the best deals & stuffs. (mostly relying on newspaper adverts & "reliable" sources...hahaha)

On top of it, I don't know where to even get "the best" of stuffs, especially where foods are concern. Like where to get the best "keow teow t'ng", "char kueh teow", "ban cheng kueh", etc. Most of the time, I just follow around, or frequent the regular places nearby

Well, apart from all the above mentions, I do still know or at least like some things that are Penang-ish.

I definately like "Hokkien Mee". Especially if the soup cooked is really tasty and good. guaranteed clean bowl. I like nyonya made kueh's, ah pom (thin sort of pancake), chee cheong chok (porridge), chee cheong fun, etc...(if only I can remember all of it)

Shoes No More

It's not that I won't wear shoes anymore, but in actual fact is because I no longer own any pair of shoes, nor sandals, even a pair of slippers. I failed to replace my worn out shoes in time, before my very last pair of slippers gave up on me...*sigh*

What I'm wearing at the moment ? Something borrowed of course.

Should I buy more new pairs just in case from now on ? I should consider.

(Hahaha...) Hard to believe I don't own more than 2 pairs of shoes right ? Another poor excuse for being a female *groan* It's been rather frustrating for me to find something (even as simple as a pair of shoes) that I would really like and would wear for a certain period of time.

What I usually look for in a pair of shoes/sandals/slippers

1) design is practical yet attractive (sometimes unique)
2) comfortable (must be at least comfortable & durable for long walks)
3) colour (dark colours preferred, but if some light coloured ones are nice, I would consider. Well basically, dark colours are much easier to match...)
4) good, firm, non-slippery sole (you know some sandals are without rubber soles, you could *accidentally* slip and fall with those...wear with caution. why do they even create such shoes anyway...)
5) price (hmm...as long as it's reasonable and within budget lah. I do wonder though why some shoes are priced at unreasonable & ridiculous prices...)

A shopping I need to go....*sigh*

*Money come, money go, wonder how I can make it grow...* hehehe...

What I'm Missing Out...

*just some random thoughts that came popping out from my mind, let's see now...

1) Hanging out with friend(s)
I'm not particularly a "group" person, however I do enjoy having a friend, the most maybe 2-3 in a relatively smaller & closer group of friends, spending time together over yumchar, or a nice meal. Updating, chit-chatting (or sometimes gossiping) about each other & others.

*Would definately want to make it happen again one day

2) Travelling
If only I'm not that particularly prone to motion sickness, I would actually enjoy travelling. Even if I do drive, fatigue would definately kick in and kill my sense of enjoyment (yea, pathetic right?) I try to enjoy the relaxation time though, look around, see a different scenery & environment (hmm....can I even say that it's worth it?) LOLz

*And I thought motion sickness would pass over time...sigh...mentally weak

3) Movies
Yea, watching at cinema types, not just watching DVD's at home on my reasonably wide screen or portable screen (laptop that is) It's a whole different experience especially with surround sounds and everything big & loud. Wonder whether the translations are any better nowadays...hahaha (I miss the annual movie outing with friends...*sob sob*)

*Well, ok, financially speaking, DVD's really aren't that bad, cos I do get to watch some cool movies over and over (& over) again. *grins*

4) Pool
No, not swimming pool. Pool, snooker, billiards (Well, maybe the snooker table IS too big and wide for me) But, I used to enjoy pocketing them balls. Although I still lack certain sense of judgement, and the lack of practice on strength, angle, strategy planning. It's having fun that counts...(I feel sorry to my devoted "sifu's" already...thousand apologies ya?)

*Definately an activity next on my list, need to find a decent outlet though

5) Good Food or Cuisines
Well, frankly, I confess I am a rather "picky" eater. So I do have my preferences in taste. I miss those younger times when the family went for hi-tea and stuff. Hmm...get a whiff and look of all those pastries, delicious cakes, mouth watering fruit salads....*yummy* Buffet would have been something I'd indulged in too, but not anymore...for obvious reasons! LOLz

*Sushi buffet (all you can eat) anyone ??? hahaha...

Let's Start Growing!

Alright, first of all (pre-announcement), *ahem* if you don't ever see me updating this post after some time, you'll know that the green thumb has failed on me (again) *touch wood*

Anyway, here goes...

I've bought some flower seeds and reasonable functional type of pots. I'd love to see some mixtures of flowers of some sorts growing out together. Hope it'll work, not sure how it'll turn out looking though, I do hope it'll come out the way I'd imagined it to be. *fingers crossed...oh wait, make that TOES crossed as well...hehehe*

I really really really REALLY would love to see them bloom one day.

Worms, snails, plant eating bugs (& etc) ...Please please please PLEASE KEEP AWAY !!!

oh btw, the watermelon plant died mid-way. Don't know whether it's sabotaged or died of natural causes...oh well...*try try TRY...again & again & again*

10 Mins Walk

10 mins walk a day keeps the heart pumping away! (Or at least that's what it's supposed to help with...)

I walk, because some places are nearby, and it's much faster to reach compared to driving (seriously)

Imagine having only one "IN & OUT" road, which during school & work days are heavily parked (double-triple parked) by cars, vans, buses...(lorries too) sounds ridiculous right? That's how frustrated it is. Can't even get out to the main road, not to mention crossing it.

Anyway, walking...pros & cons. Of course...

1) for health reasons, it is a good option.
(hopefully the smokes & carbon dioxides don't get to me first)

2) enjoying slow walks, looking at sceneries along the way
(when everything is moving at such fast pace, it is nice to slow down & sometimes stop to look at the little things we're missing. smelling roses maybe?)

3) another health reason, build up leg muscles..?
(if work involves mostly sitting down whole day, it is best to walk any other time possible. LOLz)

4) getting to know people, along the way
(yes, meeting new people, or even meeting neighbours that we hardly even knew or met before, meeting people who work at the shops, etc. who knows you'll change somebody's life, or even they might change yours, or make some impact in our lives.)

5) feel the warmth or coolness *depending on the weather
(although the heat wave kinda ticks me off and feels like almost evaporating any time...LOLz and not to mention the change of skin colours...not very nice tans)

Anyway, hope to be able to keep walking like this and not get lazy over it. Oh, and definately feel grateful I even have good fine pair of (although not so strong as before) legs to walk with.

"Just Keep Walking"

Think Happy Thoughts

when...

1) Feeling Anxious *keep the butterflies away*
2) Feeling Blue *think Pink? hehehe...*
3) Feeling Crushed *put the pieces back, and try try try again*
4) Feeling Depressed *snap out of it*
5) Feeling Down *not the end of the world yet*
6) Feeling Lonely *Memories are precious, cherish them*
7) Feeling Neglected *freedom & independance isn't all that bad*
8) Feeling Stressed *don't sweat it*
9) Feeling Sick *laughter is the best medicine afterall*
10) Feeling....well, just about anything goes.

Just "think happy, be happy"

Puzzling Puzzles

Rubik's Cube!! I guess....this is the one puzzle which keeps me puzzled. Only managed to make one side complete, and all other 5 sides still puzzling. LOLz (trying to solve one now...)

Making a mess into a deeper mess. Have never managed even close to completing the whole puzzle. (proves how low my IQ really is...*sigh*)

Time to study....

I like puzzle games, especially Jigsaw Puzzle. The physical types, I wish I could do the biggest puzzle. (still searching for something I actually like and worth keeping)

Bejewelled is fun too (or Chuzzle, other similiar puzzle games). Fast moving game and very interactive. Really requires lots of concentration. Sometimes I can even miss and not see a combination. (must be really sleepy and tired...LOLz)

I used to be really addicted to Tetris, Lemmings (the poor lil suicide critters) and those matching pairs type of games where they test your memory. Oh yea, mahjong matching tiles too. hahaha...fun enough to kill some time with it.

Puzzles....puzzling....puzzled!!~

Healthy Relationship

There's no right or wrong in doing things and maintaining a relationship. As everyone has their different opinions, different strengths, different methods, etc. As long as it works both ways.

1) Compromise
Giving & receiving, taking turns, and having both opinions taken into consideration. Don't set expectations, but rather to receive anything with open minds & hearts. (unless its bad habits...please do something about it)

2) Communication
Open communication would be ideal. There shouldn't be fears nor doubts nor prejudice towards an idea, a topic, and especially each others concerns. Be subtle yet direct, straight to the point. Tell no lies. (How can there be trust when everything is a lie, right?)

3) Understanding
Be aware of both sides situation, ups & downs, maybe even each others mood. Communication is required, so that both person speak up to let each other know what's going on in order for anyone to understand (& to be understanding about it)

4) Respect
Personal Space & Boundaries
No matter how much both people want to spend time with each other, sometimes everybody also need their own personal space to breathe, and their privacy. A "NO" means "NO", and nothing else. Don't ASS-u-ME and keep bugging about it.

Secrecy
Everybody has secrets. It is up to the person whether they would like to share it with us or not. Sometimes it requires one to pick up the courage first in order to share their secrets, or to wait for the right time, etc. Whatever the secret is, respect it, and keep it as it is. Secrets aren't meant to be spread all around (especially after a big major bad break-up) Stop telling on others secrets unless you're prepared to have your secrets told.

5) Love
While a relationship cannot live on Love alone, but it does need some loving quality to keep it going. Love should encourage and give strength to everyone. Love should be sweet, melodic, and nice all around it. Love should be meaningful, beautiful, and wonderful. (Full of love, huh?)

Rub Salt In A Wound

No, I'm not deliberately making somebody's life even more miserable, unhappy or anything (maybe just my own)

It just means I've put salt on MY own wound, which happens to be in the mouth (mouth ulcers maybe)...and *OuCh* does it sting real bad. *gRoAn*

Even though it stings, but at least it's a much faster recovery.

*think happy thoughts....think happy thoughts....*

Why I Like...

*in no particular order

1) colour Blue
Water, I like almost everything related to water. The ocean, sea, ponds, pools, rain, etc. It gives a cool & calm feeling. (probably that's why I'm "cool")

2) looking at raindrops
Every ripple it makes is unique, always forming different patterns, like a dance in motion, or a music in play. An absolute art of nature.

3) to admire sunlight rays
*early mornings in the forest where the sun shines through the trees and alluminating it, plus having early morning fog/midst
Gives a certain extent of hope, beginning of a new day. Something so mesmerizing, it just take ones breath away.

4) looking at bubbles
Clear, round, weight-less bubbles, floating around in the air to unknown heights, uncertain destinations. Giving a sense of freedom & lifting ones spirit. Such child-like play & simple, carefree.

5) to day dream
A brief moment away from reality, into a personal space of fantasy & imagination. Well, most of the time is just staring blankly to nowhere, leaving the mind empty and blank. Just like going into "stand-by" mode.

6) solving jigsaw puzzles
Trying to put all the pieces together. Fitting every piece, section by section. Feeling of satisfaction when everything has been completed.

7) looking out to the vast sea / ocean
Wave after wave that splashes up the sand, looking out to the vast open space, wondering what else lies beyond the horizon.

8) looking at underwater sea creatures
*love watching National Geographic & other Explorers channel that features these programmes
The many beauty and wonderful (and also some weird) creatures that many wouldn't imagined existed right at the very depth of the ocean. It's all so mysterious...

9) star gazing
I'm not very good at identifying the constallations, maybe only Orient (the archer). But it's still nice to be able to look up at the vast dark sky, seeing bright twinkly stars everywhere, maybe some tiny dot planet(s). I still remember having once looked at "shooting stars" comets. (if only I can remember what I actually wished for) Not forgetting looking at the full moon...*sigh*

10) looking at spiders spin their webs
*No, not referring to Spider Man
The actual real spiders, small tiny creatures that lives in the garden or outdoors. Seeing them spin such delicate creatively designed "home" or trap to catch their prey in.

11) weeding
Yes, unfortunately since I can't successfully make plants or flowers grow, I am good at seeking and weeding out the bad odd weeds. Making the lawn a much healthier and better looking ground. And it's also relaxing, even though lots of hard work involved.

Sitting Alone

I'm not used to going out alone, eating alone, or sitting alone at places. (Even though I'm used to spending most of my time alone at home...LOLz)

Anyway, I would like to "thank" a friend (who in actual fact, stood me up on a yumchar session), to give me this opportunity to actually sit alone at a Starbuck outlet, drinking tea & reading some magazines. (thank god the articles were good reads for me to kill time much easily)

I think, it isn't so bad afterall to once in awhile go out, sit down, drink tea or coffee, alone.

Being in a different environment, relaxing and not sitting in front of the pc (although it was tempting to bring along my laptop, where practically every other customer HAS their laptops with them)

I should (if I could) do this again some other time.

Think No Evil, Do No Evil

We commonly know the 3 "No Evil's" - Hear No Evil, See No Evil, Speak No Evil. To be practical about it, I personally think we should add another 2 more - Think No Evil, Do No Evil.


We cannot avoid hearing it nor seeing it, as it is everywhere around us, but we can try not to speak of it.

Should we not think of it, we will not do any of it - just a matter of "Mind over matter" (I'm luvin this phrase already) LOLz

2nd Chance

If you were given a 2nd chance to live your life, how would you live it ?

We tend to regret what we didn't do what we thought of doing in the past. Maybe a career opportunity we let it slipped by, or a relationship never pursued / never expressed our feelings before, made a different decision, and lots more.


There is definately no option of turning back the clock and going back into the past to redo something or change a decision. But there's still a slight chance of having a "2nd chance" opportunity presenting itself.

But I guess, everything happens for a reason.


Whether you think it was an obstacle test, a trial of patience, etc. After all that has happened, there is no point in looking back and regretting what went wrong. On the other hand, we only look back and refer what it has helped us see more clearly, reflect upon it and learn from those mistakes.


Everybody deserves a 2nd chance.

I Can't Beat My Own High Score...

Am I retarded ?!? (no, not really, but it's rather frustrating...LOLz)

Been playing some online games while killing time. It's kinda fun once in awhile to keep oneself active & to stimulate brain activities. It's also rather challenging fun to have some friendly "competition" - trying to compete against friends, beating each other's high scores, etc

While playing, the leader boards keep re-shuffling with friends taking over each others positions, achieving higher and higher scores. Proves to show that there are others out there who can do better. (It does need lots of attention & concentration to play puzzle games especially)

Sometimes I think that high scores are almost impossible to achieve, until I saw other friends erasing their own scores with even higher scores (sometimes with near impossible scores) so, it's not entirely impossible afterall...just need to keep practising and try harder the next time.

Most important thing though, applying the same principle of playing games to doing other things in life, is to keep improving ourselves, get even better than what we previously were, not giving up so easily.

People's First Impression Of Me

*not necessarily accurate, but it's something in general

1) You're "cool" (cold, silent type)
2) You look young (I don't feel young though...haha)
3) You look nicer with long hair (I promised myself I won't have short hair anymore, cos it was a dissaster)
4) You're so shy (It's just sometimes better to say nothing at all...)
5) You're so quiet (I listen alot, not really the expressive type)
6) Your silence is suspiciously frightening (Yes, and I'm also the suffer in silence type)


*Hmm...wonder if I've forgotten any...LOLz

Women, Know Your Rights

Violence, Forced Sex In a Marriage is Not a ‘Personal Matter’
http://en.suarakeadilan.com/current-news/2009/06/9135

This can happen to anyone, no matter how serious it has been inflicted.

*Physical (bodily) injuries, leaves a scar, may or may not heal over time.
*Emotional (feelings) imbalance, leaves negative impressions.
*Mental (thinking) disturbances, is by far the most harmful and dangerous thing to have.

* Have you been mentally manipulated?
* Do you often feel guilty and responsible for whatever actions & outcome?
* Is your logic thinking often restricted?
* Has he/she forced you to alienate friends, family & other people, leaving you with noone else to turn to?

It is a struggle between logic thinking vs emotions, where most of the time we let our emotion cloud our logic judgements.

After having bonded with someone whom we think we love, we try to fix the problem, or just accept whatever happens. Which tends to lead to uncompromised situations. The relationship becomes so imbalance, that either one would be hurt the most. Sometimes even dangerous, life threatening.

Women should speak up, be courageous and not be intimidated by threats. Have friends and keep close contact with family members always. Let people know what's happening, or at least ask for advises.

It Feels Great To Be...

1) able to catch up with good friends
2) able to spend time and hang out with best buddies
3) able to relax and be at peace
4) an individual - no two people are alike (not even twins)
5) in control of situation(s)
6) able to make own decisions and not regret it
7) loved, and to love back unconditionally
8) in the pink of health
9) able to achieve something in your life
10) free *lot of possibilities to be free (i.e. debt free, carefree, freedom, etc)

You Know It's A Good Day When...

*in no particular order (just some personal random thoughts)

1) Everything you do seems to go smoothly, no single glitch
2) You've been surprised with some good or exciting news
3) You've found "lost & found" money on the floor while taking a walk
4) You've managed to override your previous game scores, as well as being ahead in the leader board
5) You actually enjoyed yourself when initially you thought doing something might be a total bore
6) You managed to finish reading a good book (faster than you could imagine)
7) You're sitting down drinking your favourite drink while listening to good music
8) Long lost friend(s) start popping out from out of nowhere and keeping in touch back again
9) You start recalling good old times and laughing about it
10) Someone you wish to call, contacted you first instead

You Know You're Getting Old When...

*in no particular order & does not necessarily apply to everyone...just my own personal opinion / experience.

1) You must have your 8 hours sleep, and some naps in between during day time, should you want to function properly and have your brain thinking rationally.
2) You need to catch your breaths more frequently while/after walking.
3) You can hardly keep your eyes open by 10pm.
4) You hardly or no longer prefer sweet taste.
5) You think spending is a waste of money.
6) You feel your whole body aching after doing some minor house chores/mild exercises.
7) Your rule to eating becomes "Live to eat" instead of "Eat to Live".
8) Health issues become your top priority and concerns
9) You appreciate quiet & peaceful moments more, instead of thinking that silence is boring and uneventful.
10) You can think back and laugh at your past

Generations Gap

Generation, (Extracted from Wikipedia) known as procreation, is the act of producing offspring; a level in a family tree.

A little comparision between 2 hugely different generations
(somethings just from my personal views)

Great-Grand-Parent(s) vs Great-Grand-Child(ren)

1) Money
THEN: Few cents meant a whole lot of money. Every penny saved is a penny earned.
NOW: RM1 can't buy anything, RM10 not enough to buy what they really want, RM100 barely cover...etc (they think money appear from thin air)

2) Discipline
THEN: Nobody dares to answer back & receives their punishments without complaints.
NOW: Fights back, learns their lessons the hard way, easily & swiftly forgotten (as well as forgiven) oh...and they tend to give you the "stare" look

3) Knowledge (Education)
THEN: General knowledge, hands-on experiences, outdoors exposure, etc
NOW: They don't just merely learn ABC's in kindergarten anymore...

4) Games
THEN: 7 stones, 1 leg, hide-and-seek, masak-masak, police catches thieves, etc
NOW: Computer online games, hand held portable games, playstations, etc. Well, there are also lots more outdoor sports games played too.

5) Fashion / Clothes
THEN: mostly custom and/or home made, brand-less
NOW: Barbie brands, PowerPuff Girls brands, Disney, etc and these aren't cheap.

6) Noise (i.e. talking, shouting, etc)
THEN: Talks softly, whispers, and know when to keep quiet
NOW: They don't talk...it's practically shouting at ear splitting pitches and assumes that adults are deaf if & when we respond a second too slow to them

*Should I blame on the forever-new-and-improved-latest-technology "powderful" milk formulas that kids consume nowadays ? Kids (regardless of gender) are rather (hyper)active these days...LOLz

It's "Just-So-Not-Your-Day" When...

*in no particular order (just some personal random thoughts)

1) Things don't work out the way you planned / expected it to be
2) You feel irritated and annoyed at just about anything
3) You flip right at the second of any slight irritation / annoyance
4) Your mind becomes a complete blank when you need to rely on it the most
5) You miss someone terribly lots & do not see him/her anywhere
6) The weather is hotter than usual and becomes too unbearable
7) You become awfully lazy to do anything
8) You suddenly start crying for no particular reason
9) Comedy doesn't even sound comedic enough
10) You lack appetite even with your favs.

Cartoons For The Family

The word cartoon (Extracted from Wikipedia) has various meanings, based on several very different forms of visual art and illustration. The term has evolved over time. The original meaning was in fine art, and there cartoon meant a preparatory drawing for a piece of art such as a painting or tapestry.


The somewhat more modern meaning was that of humorous illustrations in magazines and newspapers. Even more recently there are now several contemporary meanings, including creative visual work for print media, for electronic media, and even animated films and animated digital media.


When the word cartoon is applied to print media, it most often refers to a humorous single-panel drawing or gag cartoon, most of which have captions and do not use speech balloons. The word cartoon is sometimes used to refer to a comic strip.


I personally enjoy watching cartoons on TV and it hasn't stop to amaze me how much one can learn from them. (while being entertained)


Having kids around at home who watches cartoons, makes it a MUST to watch it together with them. Disney Channel is one of my favourites (LOLz) because the cartoons are more subtle and educational. Unlike the older kids cartoons - Ben10, Totally Spies, SpongeBob,

Long ago I only remember having watched Sesame Street as the only educational cartoon/show. But now, they have so many of them that teaches kids so many different things. You get to learn different languages too. (i.e. Spanish)


Sometimes I wonder whether the kids would really understand the cartoons. But after few repetitions, I guess they do (eventually). But knowing kids being kids, as long as they enjoy it, it keeps them entertained, (cos it's all colourful, funny stuffs)


Some nice cartoons that are worth watching (my personal choices) are:


1) Mickey Mouse Clubhouse - teaches counting, problem solving, identifying objects & shapes

2) Pocoyo - toddlers just love the baby blue & his friends at Pocoyo's World. they're a lovable & funny bunch.

3) Handy Manny - teaches kids to help others. able to learn a bit of spanish too. (buen trabajo) = good job

4) Little Einstein - get to learn lots of music, creative and artistic throughout their "missions" (learning about famous musicians, painters, creators, etc)

5) Dora the Explorer (Nickjr) - adventure stories, remembering facts, and speaks spanish too. (Excelente!) = excellent

6) Diego the Animal Rescuer (Nickjr)- animal rescue missions, speaks spanish too, learn about different types of animals.

7) My Friends Tigger & Pooh - The Super Sleuth and their tigger-rific sleuthing missions. woohoo!~

New Hobby

Hobbies (extracted from Wikipedia) are practiced for interest and enjoyment, rather than financial reward. Examples include collecting creative and artistic pursuits, making, tinkering, sports and adult education. Engaging in a hobby can lead to acquiring substantial skill, knowledge and experience. However, personal fulfillment is the aim.


I'm currently sort of pursuing a new hobby. Well, if there were more time, more chances, more resources, I would've loved to do lots more other leisurely stuffs.

My latest obsession and new love - my Baby Taylor. Yes, it's the same guitar brand as Taylor Swift's guitar(s). Her's are customed made though. And at the same time, I'm obsessed with Taylor Swift's songs too at the moment.


Have always wondered what it's like learning to play the guitar. It looks easy when others play it. But I guess with lots of patience and practice, I could pull through it too (I hope) lolz

Apart from the painful numb fingers I'm getting from playing the guitar, it's still enjoyable once I get used to playing the chords and making it sound right. With so many guitar playing styles to learn, the many many songs I look forward learning to play.

Whole lots more possibilities in mind. Looking forward to make it possible.

Credit Card Sins

An impulse purchase or impulse buy (extracted from Wikipedia) is an unplanned or otherwise spontaneous purchase. One who tends to make such purchases is referred to as an impulse purchaser or impulse buyer.

This is a bit continuity from the post "Retail Therapy" regarding to purchases and *gulp* over-spending...

I don't know about you guys, but I would feel pretty bad and guilty if that'd happens. When over spending occurs, and you can't bring yourself to stop it, the small amount will accumulate and increase in time. *yikes* Eventually leading to relying on credit cards. Even if you can afford to settle it, there will surely have it's side effects later on. (think about it)

Lots of credit cards tend to have various attractive offers. And one credit card in particular claims that it "changes people's lives". I agree that it does "change" people's lives, but for good or for worst ?

Is it really worth it to be temporarily satisfied? When it is encouraging people to spend more than they can actually afford? What ever happened to "saving for a rainy day" ? Or how about focusing on practical purchases? Needs vs Wants?

Lesson of the day (& further reminder to self): Big no-no on overspending, especially using credit cards. Practice self discipline, and always think-think-think before deciding whether the purchase(s) is really required. Unless it's a real emergency...

Self Satisfaction

Self Satisfaction (extracted from thefreedictionary.com) - Satisfaction, especially complacent satisfaction, with oneself or with one's accomplishments.

I'm learning the guitar, self learn (well, youtube helped alot)

I've learned to play basic chords (really really basic)

I've learned to strum (need to work more on that)

I'm learning to memorize chords (lots and lots of repetition playing)

*ouch* fingers numb and painful by now

I've managed to learn & memorize the song "Edelweiss" guitar chords. It's nothing like how people play it (as seen on youtube) but it's still something. LOLz

That's my satisfaction of the day.

*Taylor Swift songs, here I come!!*

Coldest Swim

Weather was warm during the afternoon, so it looked like rather good weather for swimming. Until...

Arrived at our usual swimming place, wind was chilly (as usual), sun was almost setting, looked a bit cloudy though, when down into the water we went...

BbbbBbbbbbbrrrrrRRrrrrrrRRrrrrrrrr...........................................

Too cold today...EXTREMELY cold...unusually cold. *sigh*

What a day it has been...

Retail Therapy

Retail therapy (extracted from Wikipedia) is shopping with the primary purpose of improving the buyer's mood or disposition. (1) Often seen in people during periods of depression or transition, it is normally a short-lived habit. Items purchased during periods of retail therapy are sometimes referred to as "comfort buys."

I tried to go for one, but instead ended up buying stuffs for my daughter. Well, she needed more stuffs than me anyway. I'm still happy I bought her those stuffs, cos that makes her happy. (does that still count as retail therapy?)

Anyway, I have one frustrated thing though, while embarking on this "retail therapy" journey, I practically window shopped almost the entire shopping complex for something I needed. (i.e. new shoes) But to no avail, found nothing that catches my interest. Or at least, in terms of its design and practicality. Not to mention the unbelievably ridiculous prices. (this pisses me off even more than supposingly improving my mood. lolz)

Personally, I wouldn't dare try "retail therapy" during down times (as in during bad moods), cos the brain ceases to function, you'll probably tend to overspend, maybe even take almost everything and anything in sight even though you don't really need it but just felt like wanting it. Then when you finally wake up to your senses, you'll probably regret that you spent those hard earn money on "junks", not to mention the accumulative credit on your credit card. (guilty as charged)

Lesson of the day: Shop when in a good mood and financially able. Do other non-spending activities when in a bad mood. (lolz)

Dare To Dream

Kudos to the winners of Britain's Got Talent! Really a mind blowing performance from the finalists. Everyone was a winner, unique and talented in their respective acts. With such sheer determinations, hard work and efforts, plus the most important factor - dare to dream.

It proves to show that, no matter who you are, where you come from, how old you may be, anything is possible.

The most memorable act which I'll always look up to for inspiration and encouragement would be Susan Boyle's performance of "I Dreamed A Dream" from Les Miserables. Very emotional, very inspirational indeed.

Susan Boyle's audition "I Dreamed A Dream" - Les Miserables
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

Britain's Got Talent 2009 Final Winners
http://talent.itv.com/videos/playlist/id_36.htm

Begin•ing

Introduction to Begin•ing (beginning)

Definition: The act of doing that which begins anything; commencement of an action, state, or space of time; entrance into being or upon a course; the first act, effort, or state of a succession or acts or states.

Begin•ing

to begin another chapter in my life;

to start & learn something new;

to embark on journey(s) - physically, mentally or spiritually;

to seek out & pursue career opportunities and achieving satisfactions;

Begin•ing

also serves as a reminder and encouragement to myself

(if you kinda read it like this - "Begin! Ing")

yes, definately sounds more like a wake up call, pick myself up and to actually start moving

We cannot change the past, but can only grow and learn from its experience.

Only by ending it, allows ourselves the opportunity to begin something new.

Demolisher

The one that destroys what has been built...

Builder

The one who builds things...

Dancer / Performer

Ballet? Hip Hop? Ballroom? ....etc

Singer / Entertainer

Kara-OK-e!!~

Tattoist

Artistic self expression

Artist / Painter

Past time favourite - wall scribbling & doodling

Small Young "Talent" Cuties Diary

Early signs of talent in particular areas...

Ham...Ham...Hamtaro?!?

One eats slowly & elegantly, the other eats relatively fast

*storing food in the mouth like a hamster

Hot & Spicy

Only one can eat hot & spicy, the other cannot

Sausage + Bun

One eats only bread/bun, another eats only the sausage

Different Taste

Both have difference preferences for taste...

Cry Baby Cry

Sometimes

both will cry together

Crying vs Laughing

Sometimes when one is crying (feeling sad),

another might be laughing (feeling happy)

The Cry

Sometimes when one is crying,

another doesn't know what to do

The Peace

Both are in fact very loving towards each other

*no hard feelings*

After The Anger

After being angry, both will have a quick sneak peek at each other

When In Anger

When in anger, both will ignore each other

The Responsibility

In the end,

both will have to take responsibility for their actions

To Accuse or To Defend

Both will deny when questioned...

Admit Or Not To Admit

When things breaks nobody will admit...

The Bad

The Bad doesn't always seems that Bad

The Good

The Good are not really that Good

Small Young Cuties

Small Young Cuties

Lil Angel vs Lil Devil