Music Moves My Soul...Or Not

Actually, I've been searching and listening to songs a whole lot. It's fun (no offence) but it is a real pain too, cos of all the findings, searchings, listening (sometimes ear splitting) all throughout youtube. *argh...*

But just for the sake of this upcoming event (Let's Make It Happen 2), I'll do whatever it takes, to bring some fairly lively (hopefully good enough) entertainment throughout the day.

More choices to choose, oh...my ears...*continues*

My CNY & Valentines

First of all, Happy Roaring New Year & a Lovely Valentines to everyone (belated Valentines that is). But who's counting, everyday can be Valentines if one wants it to be.


I managed to spend my CNY eve night / CNY morning a little differently this year. I've never really been out of the house much previous years (actually, almost never out from the house..literally) This year however, managed to look see at some pretty sights and a different experience.


Visited the Penang Buddhist Association temple, lotsa bright lights, praying and stuffs. The beautification of the temple looks amazing. Much different from what I remembered (some 12-13 yrs ago. The buddha tree looks as big and tall as ever. I quite like the leaves, cos of its shape and appearance. And one particular tree which my friend showed me, actually had a "face" on it, the branches stretched out, bench like for ppl to sit on type. When I first looked at it, it kinda looked weird with the face, but after that, I think the face gradually kinda looked like it was smiling. (imagination / mirage ?)


After that, went to another small like temple (house converted cum temple), they were having the lion / dragon dance performances. The drum beat kinda made my heart beat even more (LOL! chi kek-ness...but a bit too much for me to bear. Was kinda tiring) Have been a long time since I've last watched performances up close.


Along the way, people were playing with fireworks. Shot after shot of colourful fireworks lit up the night sky. (Goes to show how rare I've looked out of my own window to see such things)

Anyway, it's been a fun & pleasant experience CNY for me this year so far. Hopefully more good stuffs to come. *Rawwwr* LOL!

New Experience

Who would've thought that helping and "saving" people would be such an experience. It really requires so much effort, patience, team work and focus.

This year's Thaipusam is my first (and probably THE only Thaipusam I've ever been to for the past 29 yrs). There's so much mixture of feelings and thoughts, but mostly a satisfying feeling I guess.

I've never really helped nor "saved" people before, as in actually applying actual first aid / medical knowledge. And being away from it for the past 10 yrs or so ain't helping much either. So, in a way, I'm considered totally "new" to it.

It was really a great experience to work alongside my friends, and some great doctors during that day. Who willingly shared their knowledge and guided me through some hands-on-experiences.

Thank you everyone, for making my "new" experience such an unforgetable and somewhat enjoyable one. (Luckily I didn't have to repeatedly climb up and down few hundred flights of stairs) The tophill view was remarkable.

Oh yea, thanks to some youth's (SXI guys) for the "peacock" debate. I had such a great laugh about it. Time to start watching more animal planet / national geographic eh ?

My mom's quote / question of the day : Who rules the world?
Answer : The hand that rocks the cradle (WOMEN!!!)

I Love Swimming

The relaxing leisurely type of swimming of course...not the competitive type.

Never felt so "alive" and eager to go swimming. Actually, it has been ages since I last swam...(proper swimming)

Unfortunately, I'm very stuck at the 4 feet area. Will never venture off further than that. Even though I know how to swim, but I feel safer where my feet can actually touch solid ground. I doubt I can even float properly. It's no fun to almost drown when you were very young...

At times, feels so breathless, probably due to stress, or the water pressure of the water against the chest. (yes yes...I'm very short, so the water pressure is right against my chest, where it causes breathing difficulties)

But nonetheless, I love swimming. I love the water. I love the beach too. But not swimming in the sea though...big NO no.

Wonder if I can still slim down even more from swimming...hmm...*dreaming*

My First...(part 2)

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4) Handphone

This must be my funniest memory of all. Cos it all started with a bet with my dad. He bet that IF I scored 4A's in my SPM, he would definately give up smoking this time. I accepted the challenged, and did whatever I could for the exam. When the results were out, I actually got 4A's (bet he didn't see that coming, he probably was counting his luck that I'd scored maybe 1-2 A short), but my dad kinda swapped something even better for me instead. hhehe....so that's how I got my first nokia handphone.

5) Sushi & Sake

Thanks to my brother who first introduced me to sushi some 13 yrs back *I think (back then there was only SushiKing). So now, I'm very much hooked with sushi...kinda addicted to it (if only I could eat as much as I could, buffet's all you can eat might sound nice) Cheap & good salmon sushi's my fav !! (Sushi anyone? Arigato Gozaimazu!) As for my first Sake drink, it was during one of my birthday. My first impression was, it tastes like "banana + vanila" essence thingy... (weird)

6) Driving & Getting Lost

My first time driving alone, just after I got my driving license, and I ended up lost god-knows-where, didn't know how to get back home just because I took a wrong turn. Luckily, Penang is an island, so it's safe to go round and round and round...as long as I don't cross the bridge. Anyway, lucky for me, there was an event of muhibbah function going on, saw some policemen diverting traffic, managed to ask them the way back. Thank my lucky stars too that I was wise enough to fill up my car with petrol before embarking on this "dangerous" journey. It was getting kinda late and dark too.

Oh yea, first time driving at NIGHT too, while getting LOST. First thing I did coming back home, prayed to "Kuan Yin" and cried, thanking her for guiding me back home safely. This is also partly why I never want to drive alone, especially to ulu & alien known places to me. (I'm also a directionless prawn head with totally no sense of direction at all. A compass is of no use to me either...go figure)

My First...(part 1)

No. Not talking nor discussing anything about my sex life or first kiss or first relationships stuffs. It's going to be another "boring" post... (accept the fact)

So, my first "experiences" or encounters of sorts... (whatever I can still remember)

1) Bike accident

Happened sometime around form 4, around CNY. Thought my life would end right there & then. But luckily there was no traffic at the time of accident. I panicked and braked too hard when a car swerved right out, causing the brakes to jam and skidded. To my surprise, it was painless when I hit the ground and skidded, the pain and side effects only kicked in when I got up and tried to move...and also during the whole recovery period. My whole mind totally shut off and went blanked. When the first thought popped up, it was me feeling very guilty for being careless and thought my parents would've killed me for it. I never got the chance to participate in school sports for the final time during my final year in school.

2) Car accident

I was a back seat passenger, while my mum was driving. We were heading back to Penang from KL with an uncle of mine. It was pouring heavily, a car had already crashed and stopped in the middle of the highway. My mom tried to avoid it, but because there were probably oil spills, the car couldn't stop, the brake jammed, and the car just kept moving forward. Luckily it didn't spin uncontrollably, we would've been goners. And even luckier cos we skidded along the road dividers, rammed right behind an old model proton saga with very sturdy bumper. Wasn't even a scratch on that thing, but it made the front of our car crushed.

3) Leaving Home

Right after SPM and just the start of the holidays, I decided to pursue my "dream" studies in communication design in KL. I finally left my home in Penang of 18 years, to live on my own, being "semi" independant. (financially still funded by parents) It was a bit weird at first, living on my own, meeting new friends, housemates, new environment. But with some good friends/people accompanying me that time, I felt better.

Why People Should Stay Calm

I've had my own fair share of "not-so-nice" situations. Whenever it happens, it doesn't feel pleasant. It's hard, it's nasty, it's disturbing...


When Anger Boils

Feels like your whole body shakes or shivers non-stop, breathing heavily, feels tense, mind & head feeling heavy, your blood vessels feels like exploding, wanting to shout it out and venting that anger right out. It's pressuring, and potential migraine happening, sudden surge & burst of energy, but drains all out very fast. The words spoken can be unkind and forceful (and definately ones that hasn't been filtered by the brain) You'll regret ever uttering them, feeling guilty once you've realized that mistake.


Deep Sadness of Betrayal


Suddenly finding out the ugliest of truths when everything just seemed fine, immediately brings your spirits down, makes your heart sink, and mentally drained. You wonder what went wrong, why it happened or is happening, blaming yourself or the other(s). Blaming ourselves over it tends to lead to depression and possibly suicidal feelings. The thought of losing everything, and a life no longer worth living nor striving for. One of the most powerful and dangerous feelings of all if not well managed.



Cries of Sadness


The tears just can't stop flowing, the feelings keeps on swelling up, you choke and cough in between sobs to catch some air, but just doesn't work. Hyperventilating, heart pounding tremendously, sweating cold sweats, you feel like you're turning blue and could faint at anytime.


I don't have the ultimate solution, but it would probably be better and safer to have a motivational and supportive group or individual to be there for us in time of need. A better emotional management is in need. Seriously take into consideration and not allow it to happen again and again.

So, stay calm. *chanting chanting*

Why I Shouldn't Nap During Hot Days

I've never been a fan of "afternoon naps", but sometimes if I'm really tired, I do try to have one. Maybe say 10-15 mins ?

But all these while, my experiences were not so pleasant. (there goes my pleasant dreams...day dreaming got lah!) They say that naps should "refresh" you and all those stuffs, but for me, it just gives me a headache and potential migraine... *bleh*

So eventually, most of the time, I would just hang in there throughout the day, and do my sleeping at night. If I did successfully napped during the afternoons, I wouldn't be able to sleep early at all at night... (there goes another good night's sleep and sweet dreams) *double bleh*

Lesson for myself: just sleep early lah!~~ (as if) hahaha....

Shopping Here I Come

Ok, have went ahead with a little bit of shopping anyway. Despite the lack of "substance".


I'm so into C.Union brand at the moment. It just so happens that I quite like the designs (vintage design styles printed on their apparels), the sizes & cuttings fits me (I especially like the V-necks), and their assorted colour range & combinations (at least it's acceptable & quite pleasant) some are really bold, but overall, it's nice!

I hope they maintained and improve their designs and quality though. Otherwise I would need to keep changing brands and finding alternatives every other shopping.

Shop-A-Holic

I have a sudden urge to refill my closet with more clothes now.

It is also possibly because it's the Mega Sale, so everything is definately affordable and reasonable. And also a fact, I don't know where the maids have put away some of my nice clothes and forgotten where they've put it. (meaning it's lost somewhere) I definately would need to replace with new ones pretty soon anyway.

But before I even do, I've already used up my quota on my kids. Kids clothes aren't exactly cheap. The only reason why spending is necessary (and inevitable) because they look cute & pretty in almost anything (especially if its girls) and being girls, all also want to be cute & pretty. They choose their own clothes, fashion, even shoes... (except for sizes)

The most important reason is definately because, they grow up so fast and so big. As they grow up, they tend to become even more picky on their choices and fashion. (kids also have fashion taste too you know)

Hmm...Kids fashion show anyone ? LOLz

When Hot Is Just Too Hot

Sun sun, go away, hide away behind some clouds today...

If there's any clouds for it to hide that is. Sky looks pretty clear these days. Almost too clear. Clouds are as white as...snow? The sun rays practically shines right through the clouds, illuminating it's fiery blazing rays all across the land...er...island too.

That's why such weather leads to a whole lot of other complications. Too hot, makes the whole body sweat, sweating leads to dehydration, dehydration leads to people becoming blur, blur leads people to want to faint, fainting leads to .... (the list goes on and on...)

This is also the time when I hate my 10 + 10 mins daily walks...*sigh* more skin changing tones (Chameleon kah?) LOLz

But it'll be good for my growing plants though. The sun light will definately make them grow faster and healthy. It's definately going to be a nice experience to see plants grow and flowers blooming. How long will it take...hmmm...

Need For Speed

Yea, talking about my driving.

I personally would rather drive a manual car than an auto any time, any day. (even if it kills my legs during traffic jams)

Based on my own personal driving experience, or preference, manual provides a sense of control, controlling the speed by choice of gears, better pick-up, etc. (but of course I don't simply speed over the limits lah...)

Why I would rather drive and have the urge and hunger for speed ? Weird excuse but...it's because I'm prone to motion sickness when being a passenger. LOLz. Yups, I am fated not to be a passenger, to just sit back and relax being driven around. *sigh*

Seriously, not even the shortest distance. Whenever the car moves, stops, takes a turn, goes over bumps, any swaying, goes up parking ramps, bumpy roads, etc....I'm a goner. *praying extra hard for dear life* hehehe...

That's why I don't really like taking buses. LRT's, trains are the worst (from my long ago experience) Boats, ferries, I'm not quite sure cos rarely travel on them. Planes, well...only feel annoyed with the air pressure, ear pain, and the few failed attempts to swallow hard...but still, motion sickness kicks in once in awhile.

New Sandals....& Slippers

FINALLY! Just bought them. Will finally have my own slippers to wear and not always borrowing others. LOLz (It was fun while it lasted though)

My usual favourites are flats. Since borrowing my mom's shoes, which are half an inch or more high soles, it doesn't feel so natural and comfortable walking on. But my mom does have almost a whole shelf of different design shoes, heels & sandals.

When I was young, I remembered always playing around with my mom's heels, trying them on and attempting to walk while wearing them. (a bit deja vu feel when the kids do it now)

Oh, reminds me too how I kinda played around with my mom's make-up stuffs as well. I didn't quite understand why people put on make-up anyway. Cos til now, I've only put on make-up for performance or special events purposes (but that was also ages ago)

I kinda already like the way I am. The make-up kinda makes my skin even worse...ohhh...*pimples* Been trying ever hard to keep the skin natural and avoid more pimples than before. *groan*

Shoes No More

It's not that I won't wear shoes anymore, but in actual fact is because I no longer own any pair of shoes, nor sandals, even a pair of slippers. I failed to replace my worn out shoes in time, before my very last pair of slippers gave up on me...*sigh*

What I'm wearing at the moment ? Something borrowed of course.

Should I buy more new pairs just in case from now on ? I should consider.

(Hahaha...) Hard to believe I don't own more than 2 pairs of shoes right ? Another poor excuse for being a female *groan* It's been rather frustrating for me to find something (even as simple as a pair of shoes) that I would really like and would wear for a certain period of time.

What I usually look for in a pair of shoes/sandals/slippers

1) design is practical yet attractive (sometimes unique)
2) comfortable (must be at least comfortable & durable for long walks)
3) colour (dark colours preferred, but if some light coloured ones are nice, I would consider. Well basically, dark colours are much easier to match...)
4) good, firm, non-slippery sole (you know some sandals are without rubber soles, you could *accidentally* slip and fall with those...wear with caution. why do they even create such shoes anyway...)
5) price (hmm...as long as it's reasonable and within budget lah. I do wonder though why some shoes are priced at unreasonable & ridiculous prices...)

A shopping I need to go....*sigh*

*Money come, money go, wonder how I can make it grow...* hehehe...

Let's Start Growing!

Alright, first of all (pre-announcement), *ahem* if you don't ever see me updating this post after some time, you'll know that the green thumb has failed on me (again) *touch wood*

Anyway, here goes...

I've bought some flower seeds and reasonable functional type of pots. I'd love to see some mixtures of flowers of some sorts growing out together. Hope it'll work, not sure how it'll turn out looking though, I do hope it'll come out the way I'd imagined it to be. *fingers crossed...oh wait, make that TOES crossed as well...hehehe*

I really really really REALLY would love to see them bloom one day.

Worms, snails, plant eating bugs (& etc) ...Please please please PLEASE KEEP AWAY !!!

oh btw, the watermelon plant died mid-way. Don't know whether it's sabotaged or died of natural causes...oh well...*try try TRY...again & again & again*

10 Mins Walk

10 mins walk a day keeps the heart pumping away! (Or at least that's what it's supposed to help with...)

I walk, because some places are nearby, and it's much faster to reach compared to driving (seriously)

Imagine having only one "IN & OUT" road, which during school & work days are heavily parked (double-triple parked) by cars, vans, buses...(lorries too) sounds ridiculous right? That's how frustrated it is. Can't even get out to the main road, not to mention crossing it.

Anyway, walking...pros & cons. Of course...

1) for health reasons, it is a good option.
(hopefully the smokes & carbon dioxides don't get to me first)

2) enjoying slow walks, looking at sceneries along the way
(when everything is moving at such fast pace, it is nice to slow down & sometimes stop to look at the little things we're missing. smelling roses maybe?)

3) another health reason, build up leg muscles..?
(if work involves mostly sitting down whole day, it is best to walk any other time possible. LOLz)

4) getting to know people, along the way
(yes, meeting new people, or even meeting neighbours that we hardly even knew or met before, meeting people who work at the shops, etc. who knows you'll change somebody's life, or even they might change yours, or make some impact in our lives.)

5) feel the warmth or coolness *depending on the weather
(although the heat wave kinda ticks me off and feels like almost evaporating any time...LOLz and not to mention the change of skin colours...not very nice tans)

Anyway, hope to be able to keep walking like this and not get lazy over it. Oh, and definately feel grateful I even have good fine pair of (although not so strong as before) legs to walk with.

"Just Keep Walking"

Puzzling Puzzles

Rubik's Cube!! I guess....this is the one puzzle which keeps me puzzled. Only managed to make one side complete, and all other 5 sides still puzzling. LOLz (trying to solve one now...)

Making a mess into a deeper mess. Have never managed even close to completing the whole puzzle. (proves how low my IQ really is...*sigh*)

Time to study....

I like puzzle games, especially Jigsaw Puzzle. The physical types, I wish I could do the biggest puzzle. (still searching for something I actually like and worth keeping)

Bejewelled is fun too (or Chuzzle, other similiar puzzle games). Fast moving game and very interactive. Really requires lots of concentration. Sometimes I can even miss and not see a combination. (must be really sleepy and tired...LOLz)

I used to be really addicted to Tetris, Lemmings (the poor lil suicide critters) and those matching pairs type of games where they test your memory. Oh yea, mahjong matching tiles too. hahaha...fun enough to kill some time with it.

Puzzles....puzzling....puzzled!!~

Rub Salt In A Wound

No, I'm not deliberately making somebody's life even more miserable, unhappy or anything (maybe just my own)

It just means I've put salt on MY own wound, which happens to be in the mouth (mouth ulcers maybe)...and *OuCh* does it sting real bad. *gRoAn*

Even though it stings, but at least it's a much faster recovery.

*think happy thoughts....think happy thoughts....*

Sitting Alone

I'm not used to going out alone, eating alone, or sitting alone at places. (Even though I'm used to spending most of my time alone at home...LOLz)

Anyway, I would like to "thank" a friend (who in actual fact, stood me up on a yumchar session), to give me this opportunity to actually sit alone at a Starbuck outlet, drinking tea & reading some magazines. (thank god the articles were good reads for me to kill time much easily)

I think, it isn't so bad afterall to once in awhile go out, sit down, drink tea or coffee, alone.

Being in a different environment, relaxing and not sitting in front of the pc (although it was tempting to bring along my laptop, where practically every other customer HAS their laptops with them)

I should (if I could) do this again some other time.

Self Satisfaction

Self Satisfaction (extracted from thefreedictionary.com) - Satisfaction, especially complacent satisfaction, with oneself or with one's accomplishments.

I'm learning the guitar, self learn (well, youtube helped alot)

I've learned to play basic chords (really really basic)

I've learned to strum (need to work more on that)

I'm learning to memorize chords (lots and lots of repetition playing)

*ouch* fingers numb and painful by now

I've managed to learn & memorize the song "Edelweiss" guitar chords. It's nothing like how people play it (as seen on youtube) but it's still something. LOLz

That's my satisfaction of the day.

*Taylor Swift songs, here I come!!*